If we undergo hard times, it doesn’t necessarily mean, Allah, the Almighty hates us or that He doesn’t exist


I have a very personal question. When I was younger but also Bâligh (reached the age of puberty) around the age of 14 my îmân was very weak and I went through some trials and some hard times and during those hard times I did things like I tried to commit suicide and I renounced my religion and said something like “God doesn’t exist because he wouldn’t put me through this hell, a merciful God would not make one go through such” and things similar to that, I said it to myself. What do I do to repent for this and if that similar situation were to repeat itself and I were to realise it was wrong what should be the immediate steps I should take after realising this ? Because I don’t want to die in a state like that.




In the name of Allâh, Most Compassionate, Most Merciful,
I would like to commend you on asking such subtle questions, which shows your determination to gain more understanding in our unique religion and the desire to do everything correctly according to the happiness of Allâh, the Almighty, which should be the desire of every Muslim.


Do not think about the past. Always look to bettering your present and future. We are all humans. It is in the nature of humans to make mistakes. If one commits a sin, one only needs to give up the sin, repent sincerely to Allâh, the Almighty with remorse and at the same time make a covenant with Allâh, the Almighty that one will certainly not go towards the same sin again and will try his utmost best to avoid committing the same sin. This is sufficient for the acceptance of one’s repentance. The same is the case in renouncing your religion.


The Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said: “All humans are sinners, but the best of sinners are those who often repent.” (Tirmidhî)[1]


Additionally, you will have to recite and testify to the Kalimâh once again. If one is married, then his Nikah will also have to be renewed.


Remember! Thoughts such as deciding to leave your religion, suicide and that a merciful God would not inflict one with trials and tribulations are generally from Satan. One should not pay heed towards such thoughts. Furthermore, we, as humans get countless thoughts coming and going in our minds all the time. One will not be held liable for such thoughts as long as one does not act upon them.


If one undergoes trials and tribulations, it doesn’t mean Allâh, the Almighty hates him or that Allâh, the Almighty doesn’t exist. This world was created as a test for us. If we didn’t face such trials and tribulations, there would be no test. Take the example of an exam. We don’t get everything given on the plate. We are made to study and we have to go through some trying times. Furthermore, it comes in a Hadîth:


Sa’d Ibn Abî Waqqâs (Allah be pleased with him) said: I said: “O Messenger of Allâh, which of the people are most severely tested?” He replied: “The Prophets, then the next best and the next best…”(Tirmidhî)[2]


It is clear from the above Hadîth that no one goes through more testing times than the Prophets (peace and blessings be upon them) and then those that are like them (i.e. those that are close to Allâh). Hence, one who goes through testing times is loved by Allâh, the Almighty and it is a means of elevation of his ranks for the hereafter.


When going through testing times, one should think of those that are going through more testing times. This will reduce the worry and pain.


I pray that the same unpleasant experience doesn’t repeat itself, and it shouldn’t, based on the above mentioned information. However, if such thoughts do come back, then pay no heed to them. Occupy yourself in positive things that would make you forget such thoughts. Spend time in the presence of pious people who remind you of Allâh, the Almighty, the hereafter, the purpose of creation etc.


I pray Allah, the Almighty keep us all steadfast on this beautiful religion and make us die in the state of Îmân. Âmîn.


And Allâh, the Almighty knows best,


Mufti Sufyan Ibn Yakub


1 سنن الترمذي (4/ 659، رقم الحديث:2499، شركة مكتبة ومطبعة مصطفى البابي الحلبي – مصر):
عن أنس، أن النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم قال: «كل ابن آدم خطاء وخير الخطائين التوابون»
2 سنن الترمذى (4/ 601، رقم الحديث:2398، شركة مكتبة ومطبعة مصطفى البابي الحلبي – مصر):
عن مصعب بن سعد عن أبيه قال قلت يا رسول الله أي الناس أشد بلاء قال الأنبياء ثم الأمثل فالأمثل…

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